Susahnya nak move on!

Holla! 

I'm 20 y/o already, somehow i still couldn't move on. it's hard to believe that i already grow up as an adult. Thank God for sparing my life and let me enjoy my youth :) It feels weird tho, to see the past; my childhood, high school years, just gone like that. it's like an RnR in your life, you just stop for a while and then continue your journey. it should be like that, isn't it? our very final destination is of course, back to Allah s.w.t.. from Him we came and we shall go back to Him *tetiba feeling ustazah. mom should be proud of me* 

I should move on from my past, but it's kinda hard because those were the best days in my life. so right now, i'm learning to accept my adult life. it's pretty awkward, anyway. to think about settling my rent bills, paying my bike's gas on my own, cooking food for myself *since i can't eat a stomach-ful food in one time*, buying groceries, etc. hahaa =P I need to restraint myself from shopping too much. i must divide my PTPTN money into 2 parts: priority and miscellaneous. like house rent, gas, food, shopping, photocopy notes. people might ask, why don't you ask money from your parents? it's their responsibility to give nafkah to the children. Hah!! I have grown up,so i don't feel right to ask money from them unless they're willing to give me some. managing our own money is an important education for us, young adults. since my dad already bought me a bike and willing to buy kibbles for my cats when i'm away at school, so i shouldn't ask more from him. right?

"hang dah ada ptptn, pandai2 la urus sendiri."

haaa abah mesti cakap camtu kalau aku mintak duit ahakss.