home sweet home

"Leave something behind and one day you will come to pick it up"

Well, I would leave my heart back home and one day I'll come back home for good. I'll leave this god-forsaken polluted city. I want to be in the comfort of warm sunshine, cold mist, dew drops, flowers blossom, birds chirping, squirrels running up on the electric wire, cats fighting, and of course, being around my family. I have spent have of my life away from home. From my family. From my cats. I can't wait to count the days to graduate and leave KL for good. This city is not meant for me.

rindu kata rindu

rindu.

kurang dari sejam berpisah,
aku dah rindu,
rindu mak abah adik kucing.

rindu sangat-sangat.

rindu tahap budak masuk asrama,
asyik nangis ja,
time mandi,
time nak tidoq,
time bawak moto.

rindu yang teramat sangat.

bila berjauhan hati jadi tertanya-tanya,
khabarnya,
kesihatannya,
kewangannya,
perasaannya.

I've been living away from home since I was 13. During high-school year-merbok; asasi-uitm puncak alam; degree-upm serdang. Being 300++ km away from home left me queasy. Mom would be at her super busiest. From pre-dawn until sleeping time. Cooking. Prep my brother for his school + kelas kafa. Doing laundry. Sweep the floor. Wipe dust off of the cabinets. Feed our cats. And the list goes on...Well, for my dad, he's pretty organized. Goes to masjid solat subuh berjemaah, buy some breakfast *if he feels to*, sent my brother to school or doing his business in the WC; and vice versa, enjoy his teh tarik my mum made, scroll his facebook, off to work, if he's not working, dad would be engrossed in repairing his tractor or backhoe or lorry. sometimes he would clean the front yard. yes...my dad cleans up the yard far way better than i did. 

well, for my brother, I can't write anything about him because it would be infinite. gosh! you know how kids these days can kick off the tantrum. for my cats, I always talking nagging sleeping teasing them. people might think this is crazy. but i know that my cats understand what I say. ohhhh my beloved tom and abu.

Lempaq balik masa raya tahun lepas

ale tom tom!!

Jerebu

So.
I'm back in KL.
Where haze is driving everyone insane.

Fuh, penat pun tak hilang lagi naik bas dari penang, sampai rumah sewa terus bukak laptop. Terkejut jugak aku yang KL jerebu lagi. Sebelum aku balik cuti raya haji, elok ja cuaca. Jerebu dah makin hilang. tapi sekarang apa citaaaaa?? Aku dok rumah syok ja bukak pintu tingkap udara segar masuk. dengar ayam berkokok pepagi, kucing mengiau depan pintu nak masuk rumah, langit biru, awan gebus-gebus. Ahh indahnya duduk rumah kampung. Bila balik KL, terasa cam culture weather shock pulak. 

WHY YOU COME BACK JEREBU????

Sebab ni la i don't favor big city. Dengan pencemaran udara, asap kenderaan yang maha banyak lagikan hitam. Bukit habis kena tarah bina rumah.Terasa sesak dada tengok bangunan tinggi2. Dok rumah aku tengok pokok ja yang tinggi. Dengan kenderaan yang maha banyak. I kenot wait to graduate and pack my things and buh-bye KL !!! Rasa nak cecepat grad pastu nak dok rumah. kerja kat sana ja. Huhuu kalau dah budak kampung, memang jiwa #villagepeople lah. Mana buleh tinggal kampung lama2. Bak pepatah yang dok guna masa SPM bahasa melayu dulu, bagai sirih pulang ke gagang ahakss *flips hair* Kalau dah jiwa desa, sejauh mana pi pun mesti rindu kampung halaman jugak. sabar lah jiwa, lagi 5 sem ja nak habis. lepas tu good bye lah upm! dah lama sangat berkelana kat negeri orang ni, tiba masa aku balik negeriku yang kucinta, pulau pinang!