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Apa yang Tuhan nak tunjuk pada aku?

Ke degree ke kite? part 2

Well, semua orang pakat post course yang depa dapat. aku ponggg nak post gak,tapi kat blog dah arr. Aku dapat degree food tech? hha, aku nak environment tech tapi dah dapat food tech redha ja lah jenabss oi. tapi kenapa ramai kengkawan aku tak ramai dapat upm? kawan aku ramai genius genius tahap albert einstein, tak dak kawan ahh camni. dah la merbokians tak ramai dapat upm. ramai dapat uitm jahh. 

Kfine. 

Future dream

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walaupun aku tak tinggi

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10 tahun

15 tahun

akan datang

bila aku rasa down dengan study career finance marriage 

aku baca balik entry ni dengan harapan dapat

reboost semangat aku

recharge kekuatan aku

rebuild keazaman aku

aku nak belajar tinggi-tinggi

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aku nak capai impian aku

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orang kutuk aku

orang lekehkan aku

orang perkecikkan aku

aku takkan biaq hampa puas hati!

Ke Degree Ke Kite? part 1

Assalamualaikum!

Hmm,lama tak hapdet blog.Malas plus tak dak idea (T.T) Entry ni special *wink wink* bwahaha.Skang ni musim bebudak matrik & asasi tengah konfius nak pilih course apa termasuklah iols. Susah woo nak decide course apa yang nak amik haihh haihh -____- Lecturer iols kat palam dulu cakap kalau setakat minat saja pun tak guna kalau kita tak capable nak carry course tu *lap air mata guna lengan baju* Says if kalau minat gilos medic tapi tak mampu nak carry subjek biology pun tarak guna maa. 

Klik gambar kalau rabub tahap spek 18 lapis kikiki

Dah medic & engineering are too mainstream,aku pilih ahh course yang orang anggap cikai padahal hati pun tak yakin buleh carry ke idok course2 ni ahhhh! persetankan tu semua. aku dah pilih courses yang aku rasa buleh carry and leave it to Allah because whatever course He decides it will be the best for me. pendek kata tawakal lah gitu khenn haha

Tapi kannn..yang aku takut dapat U apaa? Tengah pikior nak amik RU ka dak. kalau upm first year tak leh bawak moto. kejadahnya kena naik bas doh. Next year baru buleh bawak moto tsk tsk T.T sedih kak jah. uitm first sem buleh bawak moto dong. Jeles iols masa asasi dulu tengok bebudak naik moto pi kelas,haku pulak susah payah naik tangga maut/batu caves/kejayaan tuhh. yuran uitm pulak lagi murah dari U lain huhuhu :( Kezen aku kat upm cakap sana makan harga mahal.Lekeh lekeh 5 hengget uols. Kalau kat palam makan nasik campur paling murah 2 hengget uols.

Kenapa dok UPM vs UiTM lagi?

aku tak mau dah dok sana sebab pegi fakulti ff4 penuh taik burung,facilities kebaboom superb masa aku buat asasi i'd experienced the worst time in my life. i was all alone walaupun ada ramai member dari sekolah dulu. it just..damn i felt lonely back there in palam. rasa macam jiwa aku tak compatible ja dengan palam. my study was plummeting. my grades was getting bad. yang paling aku rasa down aku suffer sorang-sorang. 

ain't it fun living in that real world?

R

Aha! Aku sebenarnya dok cari novel ignite me dengan warm bodies kat MPH setia city mall,tapi takdak puloks :( *kitew baru dapat baucer buku!* pastu sesaja masuk kedai VCD kat scm. ronda punya ronda,ada! yayy,beli la jugak akhirnya. melayang la 24 hengget T.T 

Banyak-banyak cerita zombie yang pernah aku tengok, R is the most handsome hunched-over dead-eyed undead a.k.a zombie. ihiksss. Tak menahan hakuu tengok mata biru dia. Nak cari ahh husbeng mata biru =p

Fuck,yeah !!

Bunch of zombies ?

Don't be creepy. don't be creepy. don't be creepy.

Déboussoler

                                              Bonjour!

     Lama puloks dah tak menaip,busy kemain life as budak asasi. ihikss. bulan depan dah nak final,lepas tu dah boleh kemas barang sekali dengan lemari meja study katil palam  ?? then angkat kaki. yippee!! rasa macam cepat pulak masa berlalu sem 2. dah nak habis asasi dah. yang tak bestnya kena isi upu. huwaaa....tak tau nak pilih course apa! lots of courses keep on bouncing off in my head. aku tolak course yang ada banyak subjek kena pegang kalkulator *if ya know what i mean* as one way nak narrow kan course yang aku nak. 

engine tak nak. 
math awal-awal tolak.
fizik tak masuk dalam list terus 
jadi lecturer terus muntah kacang hijau puihh puihh. 

ape kau nak hah jenab? suruh belajar pun susah. kalau nikah pun senang  susah kalau takde ilmu. le daddy once asked me "why on earth u choose agriculture?" ni bohong,daddy don't speaking and neither iolls. haha. bajet omputih sat. i don't knowwwwww nak pilih U mana,course apa blah blah...

Dolu-dolu aku selalu berangan nak belajar rerajin,achieve perfect scores,masuk uni,grad then dapat kerja hebat. rumah besar,kereta mewah,gaji ribu riban. but when i grow up,things set in me. this is wrong,totally crap. some parents ajar anak dari kecik suruh belajar hebat-hebat nanti dah besar hidup mewah. that's why some people aku tengok dah macam zombie. chasing for infinity when harsh reality strikes in life and couldn't accept it.

kemon la,belajar handle hidup bukan hidup handle korang. pstt. 

     "Daddy, i nak kahwin boleh? calon dah ada. ihikss"

In my dream boleh la kot cakap camni,kalau mintak sungguh mau kena ketuk dengan kayu sakti cikgu zai housney.haha

Hunger for THG

Err...Aku terr..beli novel The Hunger Games  
(sebenarnya dah lama simpan nawaitu nak beli) 
Aku beli guna duit elaun KPT aku la.Hihi.

Wallawey!Aku memang tak bukak buku la,asyik dok ngadap novel jaa..Pi kelas pun aku bawak.Ngee~die hard fan hunger games gitu.

May the odds be ever in your favor!

Beautifully-stretched life

I'm still thinking what I want in my life.
I have no ideas what I want to write on the blank pages of my life.
Flawless life,everyone's dream.
But still,there's no perfection in life.
Perfectly imperfect,is what we call.

I just want a beautiful yet smooth life.
I'd always imagined how my life would be.
And all I ever want is a beautifully-stretched life.
Even though is quite beauti-dully life,I'm still okay.
My life is all about surviving to keep me floating on the surface.
Whatever comes in my life,I'll face it and I'll say I'm fine.

Unreachable Dream,for now

Have you ever felt in your life,when all the pressure came from all direction and you almost gave up everything?Yes,I had experienced that painful experience in my life.But it's more painful when you have nobody to lend their shoulders or at least to you give a box of tissue *if u know what i mean*  ToT

But,the pain is just part and parcel of my life so I let it go by itself,not even bothering to think about it many times although I felt I almost reaching the crashing point of my life.I built up my life back,put everything to the right track and became sane again.Hmm.

Dream.Everybody has their own dreams and so am I.My dream is all about to be free.Free to go anywhere,free to do anything that I want and free to achieve my dream.Sometimes I wonder,why I couldn't get what other could people get?I think and think and think.Then,I get the answer:everything is His plan,maybe if I can be patient today,maybe I can get what I want tomorrow.Allah knows what's the best for me,maybe what I want is not good for me.Just be patient and I'll get what I want.In shaa Allah =)

The Handsome You!

Arghhhh!!!!!
Arghhhhhhh!!!!!

Kenapa laki2 yang kacak,macho,gagah perkasa hanya ada dalm TV?Susah benar aihh nak jumpak IRL..Ternyata telebisyen hanya mendusta.

Lee Min-Ho
-Aku setat minat dia dalam cerita City Hunter.Homaiigoshhh,dia sangat gorgeous!Aku memang terpukau ahh tengok dia berlakon cerita tuh.Walaupun 8tv alih suara,layan jugak..Hermm,sabor jelah.Masa cerita BOF tengah meletop,aku tak layan sangat sebab rambut dia tak lawa.Ufufu..Saranghaeyo Min-Ho oppa! <3

Jang Dong-Gun
-Aku setat minat dia-yang-dah-kawin-dan-nampak-tua dalam cerita A Gentleman's Dignity.Dia tersangat romantik doe!Dia still pikat Yi-soo walaupun Yi-soo tak layan dia.Arghh!!!!Cara dia pikat Yi-soo bukan macam dalam cerita Korea lain.Dia caring tapi tak tunjuk kat pompuan tuh.Masa Yi-soo pi dating dia pi amik pompuan tu dan suruh dia balik.Agagaga...Yi-soo!Kalau kau tamau bagi dia kat aku.Kikiki...<3

Gerald Anderson
-Ohsemm,gorjess!Tu yang aku mampu cakap kat mamat Filipina-Amerika nih.Aku minat dia masa tengok My Girl.Bila dia pakai spek lagi menampakkan ke-ohsem-annya.Sepatutnya aku yang jadik heroin,kenapa pilih Kim Chiu ? Uhh..Mahal kita <3

Edward Cullen
-Tet tet tet!Jangan salah paham.Edward Cullen kay,bukan Robert Pattinson.Dia nampak sangat flawless dalam Twilight.Aww~dalam Breaking Dawn dah hilang cahaya-kepontianakan-dan-nampak-macam-manusia Edward Cullen nih.Duh!Tak dak ka kat Malaysia nih vampire macam dia ? Asyik2 Maya Karin ja jadik pontianak.Kikiki..Love you <3

Err,sapa lagi eh?Ekcelli,banyak lagi tapi aku kena bukak balik diary aku,carik sapa lagi yang aku minat.Then baru aku update entry ni.Mueheheheh!