Normality becomes insanity

sometimes i wish i could give up on my life. my life is monochromatic,just black and white. no addition of new,fresh color,just a slight grey here and there. bumpy road of life. sharp thorns poking on my feet. the heat scorches me. the rain wash me away...away from being sane.

when i cried,nobody here to persuade me. to whisper "it's gonna be OK". am i that ignorant or people isolated me because of my bizarre habit? i can't be like a normal person.i am who i am.not a copycat,backstabber or perfection-seeker.is there any place in this damned world that i can fit in?

i take my life for granted. good chances are displayed in front of me and i simply ignore it. i want to enjoy my life,slowly and cherish the moments. i hate it when people put burden on my shoulders. it's hard when people expect me to accomplish something that beyond my abilities. i have own life to live,but it feels like i've been cursed  bound to do what people forced me to do. and the choice to say "NO" wasn't on my side.

a lot of thing happened to me and out of nowhere,people asked how i'm handling my problems. they thought i'm superb without knowing that i sobbed alone. and here,while i'm typing this entry,my tears sprang.although i look like a tough nut,but inside i'm just drowning,feeling weak. unable to lead my life perfectly.i'm breakable,though.i could shattered just in one blow.

why do i have to feel like this? it's painful,as hell. 

Toothache,hellish pain

I want to bite a brick
I want to crush a steel.
I want to tear every-damn-thing off.
I can do those things using my teeth.
With my aching molar (a.k.a gigi geraham)

Sure as hell the wisdom tooth is about to make its first public appearance.
A new addition to my teeth community.

Yeah,gigi ni nampak je macam tak penting,tapi bila sakit azab tu Allah je yang tahu.That feeling is like...

"Mana playar?? Aku nak cabut gigi sendiri!!" 

Rooftop. Apakah ??

                                     Assalamualaikum!!

We're rooftop princesses.
Just let the pictures unfold the story behind 'em.layan bohh

Pepagi buta dok melangut atas bumbung. haha

Pakat pakai sweater,sejuk dengan kabus tebal ala-ala London gitu. pfftt =p

Yada yada hey heyy

Oh,bulan..enggan melayan diriku lagi.

Ehh,ada puloks seketul bulan atas kepala 

By the power of ketum, baa-zangg! muncul sebijik buah nyok

R

Aha! Aku sebenarnya dok cari novel ignite me dengan warm bodies kat MPH setia city mall,tapi takdak puloks :( *kitew baru dapat baucer buku!* pastu sesaja masuk kedai VCD kat scm. ronda punya ronda,ada! yayy,beli la jugak akhirnya. melayang la 24 hengget T.T 

Banyak-banyak cerita zombie yang pernah aku tengok, R is the most handsome hunched-over dead-eyed undead a.k.a zombie. ihiksss. Tak menahan hakuu tengok mata biru dia. Nak cari ahh husbeng mata biru =p

Fuck,yeah !!

Bunch of zombies ?

Don't be creepy. don't be creepy. don't be creepy.

Seems legit

                                     

Damnnnnnn!! Camna aku buleh terisi course pengajian bahasa gunaan. Hadoyaiii,ni mesti tengah mabuk ketum ni. 

If and only if

Mathematical reasoning ? nayy..

If any of my family members or relatives find out my blog, i'm gonna delete this blog and jump from level-17-bangunan-FSK uitm puncak alam. ahaha ;)

Entah kenapa petang-petang ni homesick puloks. Badly,badly miss my home. abah. mak. adik adik. kucing(s). wifi. overloaded-with-food fridge  All these hectic-ness frenzy-ness (?) life as student always keeps me busy. Kadang-kadang terlupa nak call mak sampai seminggu, mesej pun jarang sampai mak tanya lama tak contact. sorry mak,life here is damn busy!

yeahh,all those so-called connecting-people so-sial  social networks memang la memudahkan nak contact our loved ones . tapi.....abah pun sibuk jugak,wechat tak reply, fb kekadang ja online.

5 tahun aku kat mrsm merbok,kedah.
1 tahun aku kat uitm puncak alam.
4 tahun akan-datang-degree-entah-kat-mana.

i hardly have time to be at home. i missed all those precious time whenever i came home during school and semester breaks. masak-masak dengan mak. kacau abah punya kawasaki *bila abah pegi kerja*. baca diary adik *damn!* main dengan kucing aku. buatkan susu kat adik kocik,tapi dia dah tak minum susu, malu katanya. dah naik darjah satu minum susu dalam botol lagi. muahahaha!!

p/s: that's why i'll be dead meat finely-chopped if any of my family members found this blog. heck!!!

Apakah ??

A bowl or a box of cereal can never satisfy my hunger. sigh