Showing posts with label Torturous. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Torturous. Show all posts

Wednesday, September 9, 2015

Resepi kehidupan

I went to a dinner with my girlfriends few days ago. Dzue ordered ayam goreng kunyit for us. and that has left me mouthwatering until now. The chicken were golden and crunchy since it was cut into small cube. Perfectly fried. Gosh! I love that dish. So I tried to replicate those ayam goreng kunyit today and it doesn't taste 100%, or at least 32%, same with the one we ate at mamak. Mine turns out to be oily and I put too much onions. 

why? 
why?
why?

that's why I hate cooking even though I'm studying food tech. yesss! people do expect you to be a skilled cook when they heard the word "food".the food that I cook would never taste like Gordon Ramsay's Martha Stewart's Rachel Ray's delicious. maybe I didn't my heart when it comes to cooking *sigh*

*sniff sniff

Bau hangit apa tu?

Homaigoshhhh!

Nasi dari beras mahalku hangit!!

Lari ke dapur lalu berhuhuhu....

Monday, June 8, 2015

Final exam mode!

Yoshhhhhhhhhhhh!

Minggu depan aku dah start final exam *nails biting* will sit for 6 papers for ONE week, with 1-2 days gap only aiyayai. kejam betoi gap sikit cam jilakee. orang lain gap sampai seminggu. woii semua paper killer kot! food engine, food microb, organic chem, academic presentation, HE, management. all these subjects require high speed processing + huge GB brain to master 'em. selama ni masuk kelas aku belajar apa tsk tsk. dah nak final baru kalut dafuq betoii.

*flips all lecture notes!

Apa-apa pun, layan troll dulu...ehsan abam google














Kbai. nak melacurkan diri dengan organic chemistry huhuu 

Saturday, May 23, 2015

Nak avoid ke adapt?

Phew! These last few weeks before the end of this semester, is a DISASTER!!! Maigadd, banyak gila assignments, project paper nak kena tulis, presentation, lab reports etc etc etc. Gittew lah adat seorang student kat Malaysia hello, dak-dak Mesia kat oversea nun study gak, tapi pesal ah insta fb semua asyik gi jenjalan? jelesnya tuh di sini *tepuk dada*

Pastinya stress akan datang tak dijemput, pergi pulak dihalau ke tak tetap tak mau nyah. bila stress tu mula la nak melantak nasik seguni beras, tidur lak pejam mata pukul 3 pagi celik pulak time subuh, pastu lelap balik and sedar2 pukul 3 petang. tambahhhhh lagi stress bila fikir kerja tak siap. jadah ape la asyik tido aje. so nak buat apa? nak buat kerja tapi takde inspirasi *hatta wallpaper henfon kau tu gambo bf/gf sekalipun* bila tak ada semangat mula la menggagau cari bantal. pastu terukir di bantal peta dunia...Zzz

tak boleh gitu, rakan2 seluruh universiti satu malaysia ni oi. kalau kerja banyak tak setel, pi la buat kerja tu. tarik kerusi, on lappy, bukak buku. ada idea, tak ada idea, tu tolak tepi. bila kau dah actually sit down, slow2 idea akan datang. otak tu jangan set negatif ajoo. agak2 dah electronegative sangat otak tu, at least tekadkan dalam hati tu 


"Ah, aku kena siapkan jugak assignments."
"If not now, when?" 

Ni la yang dikata: nak avoid ke adapt? Kalau avoid, sampai kiamat kerja tu tak siap. sudahnya stress pun bertambah botingkek-tingkek heheh. kalau adapt dengan stress, lama-lama kau akan anggap stress tu, alaaa kicik punya hal lah! face-to-face dengan assignments, acah-acah bertinju gitu. 

*flips shawl

Aku pun nak menyambung transribe video presentation aku huhuu. mau koyak telinga pecah gegendang bukak speaker kuat2, pastu nyumbat ear phone lak. huh, apa sajalah! janji semua siap, esok aku nak berjimba dengan hati yang tenang yeahhh!

Friday, March 28, 2014

Normality becomes insanity

sometimes i wish i could give up on my life. my life is monochromatic,just black and white. no addition of new,fresh color,just a slight grey here and there. bumpy road of life. sharp thorns poking on my feet. the heat scorches me. the rain wash me away...away from being sane.

when i cried,nobody here to persuade me. to whisper "it's gonna be OK". am i that ignorant or people isolated me because of my bizarre habit? i can't be like a normal person.i am who i am.not a copycat,backstabber or perfection-seeker.is there any place in this damned world that i can fit in?

i take my life for granted. good chances are displayed in front of me and i simply ignore it. i want to enjoy my life,slowly and cherish the moments. i hate it when people put burden on my shoulders. it's hard when people expect me to accomplish something that beyond my abilities. i have own life to live,but it feels like i've been cursed  bound to do what people forced me to do. and the choice to say "NO" wasn't on my side.

a lot of thing happened to me and out of nowhere,people asked how i'm handling my problems. they thought i'm superb without knowing that i sobbed alone. and here,while i'm typing this entry,my tears sprang.although i look like a tough nut,but inside i'm just drowning,feeling weak. unable to lead my life perfectly.i'm breakable,though.i could shattered just in one blow.

why do i have to feel like this? it's painful,as hell. 



Toothache,hellish pain

I want to bite a brick
I want to crush a steel.
I want to tear every-damn-thing off.
I can do those things using my teeth.
With my aching molar (a.k.a gigi geraham)

Sure as hell the wisdom tooth is about to make its first public appearance.
A new addition to my teeth community.

Yeah,gigi ni nampak je macam tak penting,tapi bila sakit azab tu Allah je yang tahu.That feeling is like...

"Mana playar?? Aku nak cabut gigi sendiri!!"