End end end

i can be anything i want.

i can be an actress.
i can be a fashion designer.
i can be a successful entrepreneur. 
i can be a traveller.
i can be a forest ranger.
i can be a photographer.
i can be an engineer.

but in the end i only can be myself.
plain.
pessimist.

Buah hati pengarang jantung

Oh hai! 

Aku ingat nak apply UPSI untuk degree nanti sebab-sebabnya:

1-crush aku ada kat sana
2-dia sangat sangat sangat sangat hensem.ada lesung pipit lagi.
3-dia budak master

Reason ketiga aku rasa give up.Master tuuu.tahun depan dia nak buat PhD.aku apa ada? 

Kau dah kenapa chan sampaikan dia punya pasal sanggup nak further study kat upsi? 

2-hour-being-a-teacher experience

                                         Assalamualaikum!

Adoyai...kemarin aku kena jadi cikgu ganti kat tadika pasti. cikgu tu tak leh mai,tak pepasal aku pulak kena ganti mentang-mentang aku dah cuti.lol. sumpah nervous kot tahap nak terjun sungai sebab aku memang zero knowledge pasal jadi cikgu. since mak aku pun ada experience jadi cikgu ganti (kikiki :3) mak aku la habaq camna nak handle bebudak. hek eleh,2 jam ja pun,apa yang susah sangat beb ?

yang kanan tu aisyah,budak paling pandai....dan lawa

yaa,aku memang suka budak aisyah ni..comey ja

waktu rehat orang makan,depa ni main.

praktis nasyid.lol

hey,being a teacher is not that bad,but i need to overcome my fear.wakaka. gabra beb nak ngajor anak orang. tambah pulak budak 6 tahun dengan 5 tahun campur sekali,memang susah nak handle woo. satgi sorang nak berak nak kencing,satgi yang buas kacau budak lain,satgi ada yang duduk atas meja. tapi syok tengok keletah budak-budak ni. kalau cikgu depa tak leh mengajar aku sedia berkhidmat sebab dapat upah,yayy!!

2/6/13-4/4/14 Life as asasi uitm's student

                                          Assalamualaikum!

Oh,hey. Hari ni last day final exam, lepas tu aku merdeka. oh,God! i can't remember how it feels to be home again. this feeling is indescribable. rasanya kalau lompat seratuslapanploh kali pun tak cukup nak cakap beeeeetapaaaaa eksaitednya aku nak tinggalkan palam ni. 

so goodbye,

tangga palam tahap letih sampai buleh membawak maut

pakcik bas Laju KL yang peramah belaka tahap cilaka

crush aku (?)

classmates paling aku rapat siti dengan halida.

housemates yang bijok-bijok belake

lecturer yang kacak bergaya lawa sentiasa

abang yang aku selalu beli teh tarik

cicak yang selalu berak kat bilik aku

abang bege yang tak pernah bagi diskaun kat regular customer macam aku

seat basikal kelab basikal palam yang mendajalkan ponggong

cool blog yang jauh menahala kat angsana

kakak ismart yang bapak berlagak tahap *%#*@%!

roti coney dog kat daniel's

main uno time board game meeting

lecture petang,physics yang mengantuk tahap bangun-tidoq-kelas-dah-habes

tutor biology yang apak garang tapi baik sebenarnya

exam 3 jam kasi kematu otak dengan bontot dalam exam hall 

It's once-in-a-lifetime experience,belajar asasi ni sekali seumur hidup ja,lepas ni dah degree. tsk tsk. masih tak mampu terima hakikat aku dah dewasa. paling bangganya bila budak asasi uitm habis paling awal dari budak asper dengan matriks. even though asasi ni tough,but hey when things get tough,the tough gets going,isn't it? my lecturer pernah cakap, hanya bebudak yang hebat dan mampu endure asasi yang tough ja dipilih untuk masuk asasi palam. heyy, bangga tau masuk asasi palam ni walaupun tak sehebat pasum yelaaa,dah pasum tu research university memang hebat la kalau dapat masuk pasum

P/s: don't be so hard with your life. face it or suffer it.

Normality becomes insanity

sometimes i wish i could give up on my life. my life is monochromatic,just black and white. no addition of new,fresh color,just a slight grey here and there. bumpy road of life. sharp thorns poking on my feet. the heat scorches me. the rain wash me away...away from being sane.

when i cried,nobody here to persuade me. to whisper "it's gonna be OK". am i that ignorant or people isolated me because of my bizarre habit? i can't be like a normal person.i am who i am.not a copycat,backstabber or perfection-seeker.is there any place in this damned world that i can fit in?

i take my life for granted. good chances are displayed in front of me and i simply ignore it. i want to enjoy my life,slowly and cherish the moments. i hate it when people put burden on my shoulders. it's hard when people expect me to accomplish something that beyond my abilities. i have own life to live,but it feels like i've been cursed  bound to do what people forced me to do. and the choice to say "NO" wasn't on my side.

a lot of thing happened to me and out of nowhere,people asked how i'm handling my problems. they thought i'm superb without knowing that i sobbed alone. and here,while i'm typing this entry,my tears sprang.although i look like a tough nut,but inside i'm just drowning,feeling weak. unable to lead my life perfectly.i'm breakable,though.i could shattered just in one blow.

why do i have to feel like this? it's painful,as hell. 

Toothache,hellish pain

I want to bite a brick
I want to crush a steel.
I want to tear every-damn-thing off.
I can do those things using my teeth.
With my aching molar (a.k.a gigi geraham)

Sure as hell the wisdom tooth is about to make its first public appearance.
A new addition to my teeth community.

Yeah,gigi ni nampak je macam tak penting,tapi bila sakit azab tu Allah je yang tahu.That feeling is like...

"Mana playar?? Aku nak cabut gigi sendiri!!" 

Rooftop. Apakah ??

                                     Assalamualaikum!!

We're rooftop princesses.
Just let the pictures unfold the story behind 'em.layan bohh

Pepagi buta dok melangut atas bumbung. haha

Pakat pakai sweater,sejuk dengan kabus tebal ala-ala London gitu. pfftt =p

Yada yada hey heyy

Oh,bulan..enggan melayan diriku lagi.

Ehh,ada puloks seketul bulan atas kepala 

By the power of ketum, baa-zangg! muncul sebijik buah nyok